This week has been one of those weeks!! You know, the ones where bedtime cannot come soon enough, yet there is not enough hours in the day to get everything you need to get done? I feel the guilt over and over again when my six year old asks me to snuggle with him on the couch after dinner and I can’t because I still have to clean up dinner, finish the sink full of dishes, give the baby a bath, feed her, put her to bed, finish work emails, and then bathe the boys. After they go to bed, you stare at the pile of clothes you have to fold and you debate whether you should take a shower first because you haven’t all day and you smell like BO and baby puke and probably a little bit of poop and you don’t want the stench to rub off on the clean clothes, so you decide to shower, but after the shower you realized how much work that was because you finally shaved your legs and washed your hair!! You look at the pile of clothes and slide it off the bed to a corner that you’ll get to tomorrow and turn on some reality tv that was recorded. (because thats not a complete waste of time). Then it starts over the next day!
While shopping in Costco one of these days I had two completely different strangers come up to me and tell me how much they miss those days and tell me how their kids are all older. I looked at them and smiled, but in my head I was thinking, “Ya right! ” Then after venting for 30 minutes to my very positive and calming husband about my day and misbehaved kids, he says, “This is it! We are in it! The best part of our lives is right here! This time goes by so fast, why are you waiting for the next stage of their lives when they are older and more behaved? This is it!” It definitely made me think….Im always looking ahead at our future, future trips, future schooling, what I need to get done for tomorrow or next week, what we will do 3-5 years from now when they are older. Yes, I do blame it on my very OCD, OVER PLANNING BEHAVIOR, but I need to stop. We need to leave the pots and pans on the stove and dirty dishes in the sink and take that time to cuddle, because I know someday he will not want to do that. We need to stop yelling. I know this, because I see how my 6 yr old yells at my 4 yr old, he watches me. Even though I SWEAR that is the only way they will listen. So we need to find another way, because it hurts my throat anyways! God knows I’m not a perfect mom, But we all love our children and would do anything for them, so before they are too old to want to cuddle, let us be reminded that WE ARE IN IT! THE BEST DAYS OF OUR LIVES ARE RIGHT HERE!!! Enjoy it, everything about it, the tears, the laughs, the craziness, and the smelliness. It will only be here for so long. That’s all….