If you could describe your decade in one word what would it be??? Mine is FREEDOM!!!
This 2009 picture was right before I got pregnant with our first child. I was bodybuilding 5x a week, eating 50grams or more of animal protein every day, drinking, cause I figured since I worked out so much it wouldn’t effect me, no spiritual practice, couldn’t and wouldn’t meditate, no mindfulness, over the counter meds when I needed them, ignorant as ever, and though I always put a smile on my face, I know now, she felt trapped.
Fast forward 10 YEARS and 3 kids later. 12 pounds lighter and leaner, plant based diet, 💯 toxic free, daily meditations and mindfulness, self love, and I am open MORE than ever!
What changed you might ask? After my first was born I suffered from postpartum depression and anxiety and it scared the shit out of me!!! I started searching for more, I needed more. Spiritually and Physically. When you have a knowing that there is so much more than this 3D shit that’s right in front of you, then you start to wake the F up and change internally, then your external will follow suit. I was finally able to rid myself from ancestral and childhood trauma, that May or may not have been mine, Healed wounds, Took time for my own spiritual and personal growth, stop counting calories and taking meds and instead use more plants as well as using my “intuition” and my “knowing” of what is right for me, and continue to Educate myself more and more.
When I look at the first picture, I don’t see the physical, I see what she was missing inside. FREEDOM. She is FREE now.
Here it is! Proof that these bad boys are out as well as every single piece! It’s so important to choose the correct doctor that will insure they remove every party of your capsule (scar tissue) especially when it’s thin like mine were. Some docs would attempt to but not have the experience to relive every Piece. Isn’t is amazing that are bodies start to protect itself from something foreign and build this wall around it, or capsule, scar tissue, whatever you want to call it. When you don’t remove every piece you are taking that chance of still having symptoms. The plastics, toxins, heavy metals from the shell of the implant is imbedded into every cell of that scar tissue so when you don’t remove it all you chance your health. It’s interesting that he mentioned my left was more red and inflamed from my right which is crazy because I always had more pain and problems with my left.
“𝘉𝘦𝘢𝘶𝘵𝘺 𝘣𝘦𝘨𝘪𝘯𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘮𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘺𝘰𝘶 𝘥𝘦𝘤𝘪𝘥𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧.”
I was born to be REAL not PERFECT but I’m not gonna lie, The last few days has been emotional for me, my husband would also agree. I have my ups and downs. Different emotions flood through my head as I glance at the mirror walking by or peak at my new/old self after a shower.
I’m constantly reminding myself that’s it’s ok to feel ALL the feels and give myself some grace. What’s important is your Health, Self Love, and Acceptance. Once you have that, the happiness will ooze from every cell of your body!
I used to think in order to feel and look feminine I needed large breasts. Or perhaps to gain more confidence as a young 22 year old pretty much starting life all over again. What I didn’t realize is that your divine feminine comes from within. Your “sexy” your “inner Goddess” your “Shakti” ALL come from within!!! Once you have that, you exude Femininity!!! . Unfortunately social media, photoshopped magazines, edited pictures, plastic surgery, fake, fake, fake shit, all tells us women a different story. But It’s up to us to realize if We are honoring are truest most authentic self. . I’ve had a few messages from women telling me their stories on why they decided to get implants recently after seeing my explant post. Let me just say, I am not here to judge anyone. We are all here on our own journey and as long as you feel that is the right one for you then you should be happy and content. I’m just here to share my journey with you, judgment free. Or at least I hope so.🤞🏼I would love to know, what makes you feel feminine!
I’m Officially back! And now that I am back, Letme get something off my chest….(I had to!) It will be 2 full weeks this Thursday when I removed these 16yr old toxic bags from my body. Needless to say I feel incredible! I will never take a Deep, Full breath for granted…EVER!! I haven’t been able to do that for 16 years!! Thank you for all the support and patience you all have given me the last two weeks. I documented my story if you want to see why I decided to explant and my journey before and after surgery.